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Losing a friend
August 15, 2009, 1:28 pm
Filed under: art

It’s not everyday one loses a friend.

Today is one such.

Fresh from a week-long video training gig in the Visayas I finally got to read a letter sent to me by this (now former) friend.  It was about his long-running quarrel with an officemate that I previously said was out of our hands to mediate.  My reply this morning was more of the same.

Within minutes of sending my second reply I received a riposte from the guy saying our office’s decision was gravely mistaken.  His anger was as obvious as my beer gut—huge.  He also wrote we need not be friends anymore.

I again wrote to him it was his decision and that I wish him luck.  His reply was: “There’s nothing to talk about anymore!!!”  (Note the three exclamation points!)

Now, this guy I admired very much.  His name is in the legal and human rights books when he went up against Martial Law’s main bowwow, now Senate President Juan Ponce Enrile.  He is also a major poet, which was why I became friends with him in the first place.  I am also ninong to one of his daughters and I am good friends with another daughter.

The stories this former friend bandies around about his number one enemy makes my close-cropped hair curl.  On the other hand, the things I heard about this former friend makes my close-cropped hair positively kinky.  What have they been doing in their past lives?

But that’s just it.  All these alleged things happened in a previous life.  Why should we be dragged into it?  Some other group has looked into it and has decided accordingly.  According to set processes and after judicious consideration of things, one was subsequently booted out of the organization and one remains to be in good standing.  Who am I to intervene, especially when I myself have doubts about a party’s intentions?

When I lose friends I sometimes ask myself if I was at fault.  This time I was surprised to realize I am not bothered at all.  In fact, this afternoon, I napped twice and then Pom and I went shopping.  Tonight, in lieu of dinner, I drank a couple of light beer while wolfing down a hundred pesos worth of isaw.  Suitably tipsy afterwards, I played with Panda.



Bye, cam
May 8, 2009, 6:10 am
Filed under: Film, art, personal, politics | Tags: , , , ,

cam

Our dear camera was stolen from Pom in Mindanao recently.  Yes, the camera we have saved up for in years; the camera I dreamed of while feeling envious of the other photographers in rallies; the camera that gave us much joy; the camera that I wiped clean after every coverage; the camera that took many good pictures and affirmed my uncle’s suspicion I could be a photographer when he gave me an old Petri decades back.

My family, friends and comrades know how much I loved that camera.  Aside from its kit lens, it had three other lenses from my old film cameras and another lent one from Onin Tagaro.  When my friend Leighton Wood gave us money to buy a top-of-the-line flash, a proper tripod and a wicked battery grip, I still bought more accessories for it.  I bought rechargeable batteries for the flash.  I bought Onin’s Tamrac camera-laptop bag for it on top of two others I bought from Ron Papag and Henry Sy.  I bought lens polarizers, hoods and caps.  I bought a wrist strap for it in Hong Kong.

I taught photography workshops with it.  I earned another media card with it.  I never earned from it but I got praises for some of the pictures I took with it.  It was more than just a toy; it helped me a lot in my chosen political work.

This is depressing as hell.  I miss that camera so much.

Despite efforts to find out who stole it from my in-laws’ house, I am no longer hopeful we’d get it back.  Even if we can get it back, in what condition would it be?  Did the bastard make sure it was dry where he keeps it?  If already fenced, didn’t the asshole buyer play with it too much already?  I don’t think many people where it was stolen know how to figure it out quickly without its manual.

So we are left with four lenses, a flash and the other peripherals, in addition to one film and one APS SLR cam bodies.  I don’t know when and how we can get a DSLR replacement but I will do my best.  It might take months, even years.  But remembering how much fun I had taking pictures, I will do my best, for sure.  I am thinking of asking donations from friends and family but am a bit shy about doing it.  (But if my friends and family are not shy about commiserating by donating, that’s okay by me.  All they have to do is hit me so I can send them my bank account details. Hint!  Hint!)

Bahala na. Canon’s new live view feature seems nice.  Hosto services, anyone?



The Master Painter of the Pasig River
May 17, 2008, 6:43 am
Filed under: art | Tags: , , ,

Images_1 One of the things I want to do is to collect impressionist paintings. Since Van Gogh, Monet and company are way out of my league I settle for local, lesser known artists. One of only three painters in my very humble collection is Vicente Ido Larosa.
       I only have more than five of his watercolors. My poverty prevented me from snapping up even one of his oils, even when he was offering it to me for a song (four gives pa). He was also mean with pastels. Of his watercolors, I only have three framed. One was “sold” to my mother for a princely sum of P10,000.00 and another I gave to my ninong-lawyer, Ricardo Valmonte, as token payment for his years of pro bono lawyering for me.
      Mang Vic is only one of three visual artists whose work was made into a Philippine postage stamp. The others were National Artists Fernando Amorsolo and Cesar Legaspi. Larosa’s “Old Building & Tugboats Along the Pasig River (1997, 36” x 72”, oil) won the grand prize of the Piso Para sa Pasig Painting Contest. It was reproduced on an entire wall on the river facing Malacañang Palace and in thousands of special issue stamps. Woe is me, I only have a framed copy of the stamp—a gift from former First Lady Amelita Ramos.
       Mang Vic was known as the Master Painter of the Pasig River. For most of his artistic life, he had no other muse but the stinking dead river. Through his art, contemporary Pinoys know that the Pasig was and is beautiful.
       Larosa was a member of the Dimasalang group of artists. But he was unschooled, earning his artistic spurs painting movie billboards in Sampaloc. He was already quite old when he was given his first solo exhibit by his early collectors, Dr. Roger Mendiola and Mrs. Ramos.
        He was a bachelor and had no close surviving kin. Orphaned early, raised by spinster aunts in Iloilo, he ventured out on his own with no peso on his frayed pocket. He did not marry; did not have kids.  I suspect he was a homosexual but I am not sure.
       Needless to say, he was poor, unlike his illustrious colleagues. He began to fetch good money for his paintings in his last years but I don’t know if he saved or he was able to collect from all his customers.
        I introduced two budding artists to Mang Vic to be his students. Unfortunately, Jose Erwin Mallare was too temperamentally dark to see beauty around him and Edna Cahilog was too shy to pursue the partnership on her own.
        Being far less talented, I only gave Mang Vic my pictures of the Pasig River. I hoped that he would turn some of them into paintings. I also promised to drive him to Cavite to paint some of Kawit’s shoreline but I was not good with my promise. Sayang.
        In the last couple of years, Mang Vic vanished from sight. Last I knew, he was renting a room-studio somewhere in San Juan and still living on his own.
        It was my sister Karen who told me about the news report announcing Mang Vic’s death. When I asked June Alvarez, he told me that Mang Vic died alone and lonely. Only her landlady was there to bring him food sometimes, which he could not eat until they turned stale and grew molds by his deathbed. When June went to pay his last respects, he saw Mang Vic had a pauper’s wake. Donations and late payments arrived and were given to a colleague who made the funeral arrangements but June thinks that not much was spent for Mang Vic on his last days on earth.
       Mang Vic painted the Pasig River when it was a living waterway. He continued to paint it when the river died and turned black. I wish that the Pasig would not remain ignored and forgotten like her Master Painter.

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